Yes!!! Its 31st Dec... Last day of 2004... So fast a yr has past... and only memories remainz... Guess this yr i shall set my new yr resolutions...

1) Tame myself. This yr i've been losing my cool all the time... Perhaps its stress or can say my temper is too hot... I'm gonna keep this away and be nice to ppl unless under hostile act...

2) To get my face off the horrible pimple inflamation. Friends who had seen mi this yr muz have realise my face condition been very bad... Dunno wat happened also... juz out of sudden 'boom' everything popped out...

3) Start my little own savings. Been in army for so long liao haven saved a bit b4... Although ppl say army boys no $ one... But i'm like getting so much more than others... Still can have savings... Shame on me...

4) To change my point of view of things. I've been thinking quite pessimistic at things lately... Alwiz looked on the bad side only... Will try to be more optimistic now... Look on the bright side...

5) This is the most difficult one for mi to succeed... To quit smoking... Been working towards this goal but eveytime fail... Its peer pressure and boredom tat lure mi... Seriously i need motivations to success in this lah... Who wans to be my motivator??

A great weekend indeed... Went to my god sis Bday on Sun... A real posh party indeed... Every guest wore formal clothings to attend it... Its such a grand scene... Had great fun throughout... And she had this lucky draw thingy and i got the 1st prize... Wow... a mp3 player leh... haha... lucky me... then got down to Checker's for a snack and chit chat session which last till 530... by this time all became stoned... haha...

Headed home but cant get to sleep... And i went online at 830 to book tix of Kung Fu Hustle... wanted so much to watch this show... Ask Irene to watch it wif mi... It was laffter all thru the show... Was impressed by the idea Stephen Chow has... Very brilliant ideas tat really makes every individual laff their heart out...

Now its 6pm liao... Gotta go pack my bag and get ready to jail myself again... haizzz... Gonna be out on the 31st again... Yah... then it'll be 2005 liao... Gotta think of my new yr resolutions liao... A change for the better in a new start of a yr... ^_^

Merry Christmas!!! Time really flies... its another yr of christmas already... Juz another 1 week time will be 2005... Sometimes i juz hope time can slow down... its juz going too fast already... Seeing frends in working world or almost to a degree... Really hate to grow up... Still like the times when u feel u are bigger than the world... nothing really bothers u at all... the fun times in sec sch and poly... haizzz... now its all past tense...

Went down to orchard last nite at first and ya... still so F*****G crowded... and wat i hated most are the 'Serangoon Roaders'... Arrgghh... juz hated seeing them in orchard trying to squezze here squezze there... Fed up of it... Decided to change a less crowd area so headed down Esplanade... Though many ppl too but still as cosy as ever... Sat there for a drink enjoying the cool breeze and waiting for 12am to come... Tot there will be fireworkz but haizzz... dun have... think its only on New Yrs Day countdown ba... Then met up wif some frends went over to Fernando's Bar... Really like tat place alot... Felt so frendly and welcome there... Had another drink, sing songs... Nite of happiness ends around 4am ba... Though i do not really have the mood but still i really enjoyed the compainionship of frends... SMILEZ KAJUAZ (.^_^.)

Hihi my dear frends... a bit long no update liao hor... haha the lazy worm keep crawling around mi lah...

Anyway the month has been bad lah... so much things to do in camp... cant even sleep well at nite... Sucky life... wanna ORD rite away...
Now at least can enjoy some leave... gonna relax myself and not to think of anything till i go back camp... ^_^

And i got my digicam liao... Panasonic Lumix FX-2... haha... but its quite a difficult procedure for mi to get it in hands... went to sim lim last sat to buy but so happen tat out of stock... so i told the salesger to reserved 1 for mi and i'll get it next week... and guess wat.... yesterday when i got to sim lim and the moment i step into the shop she called... saying tat the last piece is sold... Wat other sway things can u get??? Well i couldnt blame her also... she tried to find another piece for mi... and yes she got it... but its in the branch at Jurong Pt... AHHHH.... so ******* far lor... cant care so much lah... juz LL go down there to get it lah... Count it as my sway luck lah...

Oh yah... i got pix of my cute little hamster Mao Mao uploaded in Friendster... Take a look wor... so cute... hahaha...

Its been a down down down week for mi... tot things will be fine when i'm stuck in camp but... haizzz... juz never goes the way i wanted... Everythingy went wrong... The wrong thing alwiz happen at the correct wrong timing... juz cant explain y this can happen...

Luck has alwiz been down for mi... then now it went even more down... down to the lowest point where nothing can help to climb up again... Guess this year is not a good yr for mi...Hoping for the new year wif new fortunate happenings will shine on mi...

Well... so much for my down luck... juz reach home this morning wif only 1 hr of sleep... but u see now i am still awake down here right in front of my com blogging... guess i will not sleep also lah... next thing i gonna do will be stuck wif my PS2 playing games liao... My only little entertainment tat can keeps mi busy for the whole day without any problems or troubles hovering around mi...

Read all my frends blog juz now... realise tat my english really is bad... i dunno how to express myself in words... this is bad... meaning tat my frends cant even understand wat my problems are... any solutions to help??? haha...
tats all i can say now lah...

To all my frends: Take care! I really treasure all of u...

Ahhh.... last day of my long long weekend... its gonna end soon... and i realise tat during these 6 days of rest i haven got much rest... i've done nothing for myself... basically i've totally wasted the rest days... and also i've been drinking everynite except sat nite... haizzz... tats bad for mi...

Now dunno y i'm in such low mood... no mood to play game also... juz dunno wat to say liao lah... Hope in camp will be better... (>_<)

I'm very tired also.. nobody noes... i care so much wat i get in return??? Seriously i dunno... Maybe tats mi, i can sacrifice for them... But y am i doing this shit...Do i owe them a living??? I really wanna noe.. is god playing games wif mi??? Wans mi to suffer in silence??? Sometimes i juz kept quie coz it doesn't cost mi much... I still can manage thiese things... But thinking back, i've lost all the time i have for myself... Maybe i'm juz too dumb lah... Or maybe tats juz wat i am... No one i can blame, even god... Everytime i rather build the sadness on mi to fulfil others happiness...When is this gonna end??? I'm really sick of this... I do have my pwn happiness to pursue... Its juz tat she's not around in S'pore... How can i juz share my care and consern around lidat like nobody business...I really wonder myself y am i doing all this... Well maybe can say tat i'm stronger than others... But still there will be a time when one breaks down... I'm no superhero or watsoever... I'm juz a typical simple guy living in this ugly world... All i wanted is to find a stable relationship, settle down wif her... i'm juz sick of loving one after another... I wan a peaceful life... But y its juz doesn't happen to mi... Ever since i'm in love, my hearts been fluctuating between 2... Theres alwiz 2 ger around making my heart moves... Wat is going on???? Cant god juz grant my simple wish.... Sick Sick Sick.... Tired tired tired... Tats all in my mind now... I wonder if 1 day something bad happens to mi, will they come and show the care and concern back to mi??? I wonder... I really wonder....

Sick... I'm sick... maybe after a week of real hectic moments, my body decided to breakdown and fall sick to give it a rest... Running a low fever now... but still can feel the tiredness inside my body... Actually already had slight fever yesterday liao... but i juz keep quiet coz still had lots of work in hands not done... wat to do... juz suck it up and shut up lor...

This morning juz went for the stupid chemical defence training... yah lah i admit it was quite an experience but still find it stupid anyway... Juz forget it anyway...

Next week is gonna be a very very long week... weekend BURNED... haizzz... so shitty... but lucky got give us back a super long weekend... And i pray for peace the whole of next week... PEACE...

Well... guess i had nothing else to write anymore... Good nitezzz

Wow... finally i'm back from Thailand... B4 i went i wanna update but dunno wat happen to my blog tat makes mi unable to type..

It was quite a fruitful trip there to Thailand... The weather was rather hotter than here and only seen rain twice during the whole stay... The terrain of my training area was all flat plantation, so walking ia not a problem there except for the looong distance lah... The rather special thing is tat over at the plantation there are vendors selling fried rice, fried mee and drinks on van... and everyone name them ' ninja van '... Y this wierd name??? coz even b4 we can reach our rest area, they are already at there waiting for us... kind of strange ya... and its not once, its evcerytime... Amazing ain't it... but anyway the food does not taste so good afterall...
Sleeping in the field is the worst thing... there's not much mosquitoes, insect or watever but its the weather... the temperature was real low... I myself cant take it...

The canteen oer at Sai Yok Camp was good, many varities of food there, any many Thai gers... they can be as young as 14... These are really the kampung gers where they work hard... Never be surprise tat their English standard was good... Suddenly i miss Thailand so much....

A late boring sunday afternoon... y late??? coz i slept till 3pm then wake up... hahaha... dunno tat i can sleep so much... sleep till so shiok tat i wanted to sleep somemore... maybe last nite sleep very late ba... went to chinablack wif all my commandos... kind of regret it.. coz i dun like the music there... wat i wan is techno techno and more techno... haha... next time i wun go wif them anymore... i'll juz jio those tat likes techno to go MU wif mi... ^_6

looking at the time now... haizzzzz.... few more hrs to book in liao... SICK!!! alwiz hated this moment of time... next week then tell u guys more ba... Oh ya... i'll be leaving for Thailand on 4th Oct liao... will be back by 20th... not going there for holiday hor... going there to chiong... haha...

Yap yap... think nobody is seeing this but still i wanna update this blog... been so long since the last...
Haiz ita a dark monday, strange to see mi online on weekday??? Its an off day for mi... after this blog i gotta prepare to book in liao...

Let's see... wat shall i say... a little bit from army ba... I juz completed my 72Km route march at East Coast on 2nd Sept to 3rd... Lasted for bout 23hrs including break times... really shack mi out during the midnite hrs... but nevertheless i've done it... Finally i've complete the commandos training and got my red beret liao... ^_^

Nowadays during bookout i juz stay at home stuck to my PS2 and PC... its kind of fun staying home and nobody disturb u... Dunno wats wrong wif mi juz dun feels like going out... maybe coz pocket empty ba... Think now every weekend i will update this liao...

After so long i am finally back here ya... muz thanz to weiling who helped mi edit such a beautiful backdrop here... if not i wun be back here to post again...

Its a special day to see mi online at this time coz usually i'll be in camp growing my mushroom, but today i got MC, 3 days MC... Kajuaz weak lah... fever can shoot untill 39.6 and blackout... haizzz... lucky never become bbq kajuaz ah... well i will juz take these few days to rest ba... anyway now nothing to do in camp also...

Woke up early today coz last nite slept quite early... Went to Orchard Hello shop... wanted to get a new hp X430 but the promotion was over... again i missed another promotion... damn shitty man... its the second time i miss promotion... nvm lah... maybe next time ba... but next time will aim for other phone liao...

Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever

Have you ever been in love
Been in love so bad
You'd do anything
To make them understand
Have you ever had someone
Steal your heart away
You'd give anything, oh
To make them feel the same
Have you ever search for words
To get you in their heart
But you don't know what to say
And you don't know where to start

Have you ever find someone
You dreamt of all your life
You'd do just about anything
To look into their eyes
Have you finally found the one
You've given your heart to
Only to find that one
Won't give their heart to you

Have you ever closed your eyes
And dreamt that they were there
And all you can do is wait
For the day when they will care
Have you ever loved somebody

What do I gotta do to get you in my arms, baby
What do I gotta say to get to your heart
To make you understand
How I need you next to me
Gotta get you in my world
Cuz baby I can't sleep
Oh, Have you ever

Yeah i am back ppl... Actually last week already come back liao but juz too busy so never update... Also nothing much to update, coz i said i dun wanna tok bout my army life... Anyway juz let u guys noe tat i am fine in camp lor... although is kind of tough but i think i can go thru it lah... juz pray hard for mi lor...

Maybe when one day u guys see mi on the road u wun recgonise mi liao... haha... guess u all noes why rite...

Gonna stop here to start preparing to go back liao.... So take good care u ppl out there... MISS U ALL...

opps.. too latez le..
but if u hapen 2 c dis...
TAKE CARE worr... =)

Haizzz... bout 6hrs left b4 i go camp liao... so which means this is the last blog liao... hahaha...

Everyone plz wish mi luck and pray for mi... Thanx... Will miss alot of frends here...

Take good care everyone... (.^_^.)

haha... if Kajuaz go gila...first one come find Kyle... to make her gila also... hee hee... or maybe now u tell mi how many bullet holes u wan in ur body, and the size of hole... hahaha...

The photos u email mi the one i took wif u lor... so hard to see u online.... muz be busy trying to slim down hor... hahahaha...
and let mi guess... u'll gonna Arbish mi again....

jiayoujiayou orrr... hrd commandos wil go gila de.. keke.. pray u wun.. anyway photos out.. when u wan c?

Recieved a letter today... telling mi to report to Hendon Camp on the 11th June by 8am... haha... well... life of the army gonna start for this little Kajuaz here... Had some worries here and there... Coz commandos mah... everyone also say cammandos very siong... nobody noes... then here i am to find out the truth lor... to see how siong it could get....

anyway i dun have much time to blog here anymore... so this shld be the last few blog here liao... then after tat when i am able to book out... think my blog will all be toking bout army life liao... think i will be losing my readers liao... hahaha...

Will anyone miss mi when i am not bloging??? (.^_^.)

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arbish arbish arbish...