NDP finally over... so no more of the sat rehearsal shit le... so nothing to look forward to also le... only waiting for days to pass and reach the day when i ord... wun be counting it coz the more u count the longer i wun come... so i'll juz sit back relax, enjoy my leave clearing and wait for the day to come... at this pt of time its actually quite fast thinking back to the day where i got in here and got my botak head... well... i'll only keep tat as memories of my life...

These few days stayed at home to rest... never go out... juz wanna stay home to rest myself... its kind of relax but bored lah... everyday is games, tv, online... haha... nothing meaningful happening in my life... am i wasting my time... well... i think so too... but theres nothing i can do to enrich my life right at this moment... maybe do some readings lor... haha...

Anyway my life has alwiz been a keepstill state... yes its low b4 this... but now its been to normal le lah... no more saddness and happiness... juz mi, myself and my life... Sometimes when i sees my frends enjoying their highs everyday i felt so envy of them... y cant i have tat too... could the problem be myself... yes i think so... i am the problem... coz i alwz keep to myself all the time... tats y only a few ppl got into my life, understand mi... is this normal??? hmm... i really dunno... but wat i noe tat this is the real zhenquan... no mask... no extra head & face... i like being myself... although it might not be appealing to others but who cares... i liked it... Someone actually said tat i shld go find a gf to change my chauvinist life... i guess she is rite... but i really dunno how to go bout it... coz its been like 23yrs of my life is lidat le... how to change??? yah i noe is can one... needs time... but i really need advice... i'm lost... LOST IN MY SOUL??? Somebody save mi!!!