Here's a little something

On Christmas nite, i can fall asleep... Mind was running thru alot of things... I tot of u... and this sudden idea came up... I wrote a 对联 for u...


一 鸣
目 笛
心 深
寻 思
永 远
友 谊
嘉 镁

Its set

ok... i confirm it already... Things are not going to work out... I tried... I did my best... It ain't gonna change... So no point putting more effort into it... Lets juz leave it for now... No observation period needed anymore...

I hate it, i miss u

I hate it so much when u are away... I alwiz get into problem when u are away... Where are u when i need u? This is not the 1st time where this happen le... Everytime when u are away, something alwiz happen to mi... The time when need u most, u are not around...

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Drunk = Truth

Went for a small KTV session wif my colleage after work... For a chill coz today will be holiday... I actually planned to leave halfway to meet Jas to go Liquid, but seems like she overslept all the way till morning... So stayed all the way there at Party World che ren... Damn fucking ex lor... Total bill comes up to $430... Shit man... Tat amount if spent in Dbl O, can drink till u puke and continue to drink again and puke again lor...

Session finished at 2am... seems like some still haven had enuff to drink, so went over to Maxwell for supper and 2nd rd... till everyone is drunk... and never knew tat they started to tok drunk, telling truth, unknown truth... really astonishes mi... Surprised by some truth also lah...

Tough Luck

Ah... i noe i'm juz not gonna get lucky... 2 mths ago 1 of my colleage ask mi if i'm interested for another job... which is at DSTA... Well of coz i am, and i noe he actually recommended 2 other over already... 1 of them only having N' level... and they pay is good... He checked it out for mi and now wat... They only wan ppl wif at least Dip... Fucking shit.. Juz my luck, few mths ago they are short of manpower so tats y they juz take in anyone wif experience... Sianzzz...

Made a serious mistake in work today... Was not in a very concious state coz took pills for my flu... Now juz gotta see wat actions to be taken la... (Moral of story, dun eat medicine when at work, dun work if u took medicine tat cause drowsiness)

Nostalgic

Been long time since i change the template... yah... everyone remembers my blog as pinky blog... i love it wat... after changing the new template i get to see my archives... never realised tat i've been blogging for so many yrs liao... since 2003...

Went to read my very 1st entry till last... Wah piang... remembered alot of things... good and bad... my entries most of them are shitty ones... usually my rant when i'm in bad mood... cant remember some y i blog tat... but its so nice to read back all those words...

I've grown... i guess i did... met up wif Jasmine on sat after my work... stayed in office till 8pm... went for a drink wif her... updated our life... Jasmine said "U've growned" not in my size ah... its my maturity... surprised by the words... am glad too...

As usual went to NOS... but Jas says she haven seen alan for a long time too... ya so oblige to go Liquid wif her... (coz i dun wanna see some bitch over there) Jas willing to pose as my GF for the nite... Very sporty of her... so long since i've got such sincere hugs... really feels like a GF...

Alan still the same since i last saw him (mths ago, never contact him since then, or till he wake up) His 1st reaction was when did u 2 get together? Deep inside my heart was laffing like mad... Unlike Eve, never even bother to ask tat... Coz she noes wat the fuck is going on even when i never told her anything... really noes mi well... And the bitch, defintely acting like a brainless little ah lian... seeing mi and Jas hugs & hold hands, also did the same rite in front of my eyes... but who cares, tat bitch... Kind of pity the guy, Jessen, my campmate... hope he will not lose anything and wake up soon... aint not telling him anything...

蕭

Recently i'm addicted to this sound... I find this sound is more sexy than Saxophone... Totally hooked by it... It can calm my mood down... Lovely...

I would really wan to possesed 1 of this...Though i do not noe how to play it, by having one will satisfy mi much... Any kind one can give mi this as a Christmas present or Bday present... If i got it, i'll definitely look for course to learn how to play it...

Nice song... Suitable for mi when i got the news of "I'm getting married"
But i dun have so much agony like in this MV lah...

Now thats what i call music

A superb performance by Kitaro in his Love & Peace Tour... Full credits given to Kitaro & his 5 music friend... Brilliant... A mesmerising 2 hrs of music by him, especially Matsuri (the opening song for most banquet dinner)... A surprise by him playing 酒干倘卖无... Seeing him using his soul to play music can really let ur mind endulge in his world of music... Full enjoyment...

ZERO credits given to Unusual Productions... Fuck up video and audio display... Simply a no effort slip shot work by them... No wonder is call Unusual... Unusually LOUSY!!! But nontheless is definitely more worth while than watching jay chou chee bye... tat will be a total waste of money... If i'm grading Kitaro as a Diamond, then jay chou chee bye is juz carbon, not even lead...

Oh yah... met Madeline (my ex, 3rd GF) there... Walking past each other, a simple eye contact tells mi its her, she returned the eye contact, there confirm... juz greeted Hi... Remember tat she is a Kitaro freak fan... Haven seen her in many yrs, 2 more week to 5 yrs to be exact... A deep memory of her coz she broke up wif mi on 24th Dec 2002... Lost contact wif her since then... Wat a day ya... Haha... After tat did seen her once in Orchard mrt underpass towards Tangs, tat was the 1st time, today is the 2nd time...

Hey, all my ex are doing well man... 1st i got Amy getting married this mth 14th, then i got Serene getting married 18th Feb 08... (She broke the news to mi 2 days back... well kind of not surprise and anticipated it, same occurance like how Amy did)... Is Madeline gonna tell mi the same thing??? She do not have my No. , MSN , Friendster... Only trace left behind is email add, can be found in history... unless she dun use those add anymore... Well i cant care less also, all these are past, and i've long gotten over it, everyone leads their own life now, who became better, who became worse doesn't matter anymore...

Wat a day

Suppose to go ECP bladding wif Emi, Daniel, Mao Cheng & his bro... But last min change of plan. Emi wanted to go down Cine to support Dawne who is in a Nokia Digital Playzone Competition.

http://digitalplayzone.nseries.com/sg/

Dawne was in the glass room since Fri... Grand prize of 5K. Well in the end she won. Congrats!!!

I also did won something... A Nokia Bluetooth Stereo Headset

Frends of the finalist were ask to play the NGAGE game wif them, Dawne's BF joined her, then this contestant Marcus, poor little guy, seems like his frends dun wan to participate... Then in mean time we had this stupid idea of mi joining Marcus to play and bring him down so tat Dawne can score more... So i went, i'm really not good in handphone games, button so small, and i dun play one... But it turn out tat i helped Marcus to score the most... Finishing 1st... Haha... I was like oh shit... Gonna get damned by Dawne and her frends liao... I didnt do it on purpose, i guess the only reason i win is becoz i do not have any pressure, i juz play my own game, never think bout helping the finalist to gain score... Oh well, out of nowhere i got a big headset and Dawne got her 5K too... Happy ending...

Ironic

Dunno y a part of mi feel happy but the other part otherwise... Yes i've been promoted yesterday... now i work on my own, not attached to any seniors liao... something to celebrate coz i dun need to wash the toilet bowl of others liao... i've got my own bowl... at least i shit, i clean myself... On the other hand, feels so fucked... together wif mi 2 others got promoted... could say we are the same batch, we joined same time... yeah i should feel happy for them for getting promoted together... but the 2 didnt even reach the level, they up till now still dunno how to use the system to do up the admin part of the job... how can they handle case on their own... wherelse i already learned it all after 3 mths, where i go back to office on extra sats juz to ask my seniors to teach mi tat... tats so much for being hardworking ya... i felt so idiotic yesterday... 2 who can work from A - J and 1 who can work A - Z got promoted... Win liao lor... FUCKING LOUSY COMPANY!!! TOTALLY FUCKING BLIND!!!

Actually i already predicted this shit thing will happen during July... Tat day Puppy brought mi out to give mi a belated Bday treat... I've tok to her bout the thing i'm facing, and the main reason for mi to leave the company will be unfair treatment... Promotion at the same time... WOW!!! It happened... Y cant i predict sats 4D 1st prize... Ironic...

If i'm not in some $$$ crisis, i've already throw the resignation letter today liao... Sucking up for the time being to overcome my $$$ crisis 1st and also for CNY... Dun wanna be shitted during CNY... And now i will not work so hard, i work as i deserved, morning punch in evening punch out ON THE DOT!!! I dun even bother bout having OT claims anymore, the 1.5x cant even cover back my time lost for sleep and stress...

This noon Amy msn mi... Such a rare occasion tat she will msn mi... (AMY = my 2nd GF, the supporting actress for 欺 ) Instantly a instinct came up to mi, "Shit, she have something to tell mi." I got a bad feeling bout this... "Hey did i told u tat i'm getting married?" WOAH!!! Lightning struck immediately... Unable to react to the words, i juz replied "NO" and there she go telling mi when go sign paper, when ceremony, blah blah blah blah...

I've got no more feelings for her already, but the thing of hearing tat ur ex is getting married to other guy, the feeling is really weird... Dunno how to elaborate it, till u feel it, u will noe... So 1 side felt happy for her and the other hmmmmmm.......cant explain...

A week of double sided emotion... twice in a row... Wat's Next???

All i wan to say is U GOT BALLS!!!

好不好

X-Men

I'm being call upon by Professor Xavier. He gave me 2 needles... I injected the 1st one and mutated into Cyclops... The process was not fun... my eyes was in great pain and there is alot of yellow discharge... The 2nd needle mutate me into Pyro... My body was burning in a high 38.5 degrees... Tat was unbearable... For all this i got myself 2 day MC...

Day 1 of MIA... Unbearable...

Day 2 of MIA... Still Unbearable...

Can i sustain this or i will give up halfway, walk towards the dark side...

I need support... Support to let mi carry on...

Kajuaz is going Missing In Action...

HP will be mute 24/7
MSN will be offline alwiz

The only place of action is here...

The only way to find mi is i find u... but of course muz let mi noe u are finding mi 1st...

There is this saying... Don't Trouble The Trouble When The Trouble Don't Trouble You...
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I'm In Trouble...

Alrite... Apart from the joke... I gotta declare tat i'm into shit... Some shit tat i predicted it coming, yet still i let it happen and got into it... Damn am i... I dunno who to turn to... I've alwiz scolded ppl for going into shit... Yeah... Look at mi now... I'm a shit myself... Ironic... SHIT!!!

I am so bad... Y?? Coz i got another bad thought...
How bout this........... Sexy Underwear Makes My Erection Rapid

I noe its bad but i guess u will give a laff 1st b4 saying #@$*&#

Here's something i created for u...

Spreading Happiness All Round Offering New Education to New Generation

This thing juz pop into my mind juz like tat...

And here's one more... Crying Repeatedly Yet Still Thinking About Love

Haha... I'm good am i... and it matches the person... but sssshhhhhh... this is our secret joke... Only u and i noe wat is going on...

Time flies

The 2 weeks of ICT finally over... A long yet short term... Saw alot of them but everyone still remain the same... The same clicks will stay together, the same feather flocks together... I, remain alone... Not much interaction... Wat the hell, juz do and finish the whole thing lah... Overall is considered fun lah...

Now again the sian part comes again... Back to work... Can i not???

Haha... tats cool...

A Belated Big Birthday Present

Recieved my letter of confirmation yesterday... I've been confirm since 1st May... A wonderful present for mi though its kind of late to recieve it... Probation suppose to be 3 mths... But i'm being confirmed in less than 2 mths... Joined them on 12th Mar... A very good news for mi... My evaluation turns out very good... Scoring 2s and 3s only... Similar to O level grads, A1 is best and C5 is the last grad... Well i Passed With Flying Colours!!! I didn't really put in extra effort in my job, juz doing my work with my basic attitude... Yeah i noe ppl will sure get sore eyes for this... I knew it even b4 i got confirm... Now i juz wanna say Dun Pull Others Down To Show Tat U Are Higher, Climb With Ur Own Might!!! The More U Push Mi To The Steep & Narrow Path, The Stronger I'll Get And I'll Get More Ahead Of U... Ppl who noe mi will noe tat i'm the stupid fucker who like to walk on the rough path... I'm not afraid of the suffering i will face, i'm juz afraid tat it does not have sufficient suffering for mi to face... This is mi...

Now wif this job in hand, i'm setting myself a short term goal... I am gonna open my 1st fixed deposit account by end of 2008... Sounds easy but its quite tough considering the meager amount of take home every mth... But when things have to be done, it has to be done... This 18mths will gonna be tough on mi...

Btw i'm going back for reservice from 4th - 15th Jun... Waste of time... Fuck...

Power lah this dog...

Addicted to this now... A minimun of 1 dosage per day for mi... So nice!!! AAAAAHHHHH!!!!

Dun like this song... juz admire the person imitating so many voice is cool...

Thank u ppl for remembering my Bday...

Amy, Adeline, Meow Meow, Jennifer, Jaclyn Mei, Sharon, Yan Ping, Thomas Lo, Kristine, Jessie Mei, Alan, Grace, Eve, Dickson & the one who share the same day with mi Jaslyn Jie.

Though i did not recieve any big present this yr but i'm still happy... Did not wan to celebrate it this yr... But Alan, Grace & Eve treated mi a btl of martel, so went down for a short drink... Yan Ping bought mi a little souvenir but i haven got time to get it from her... Sharon waited till 0000hrs to call mi and sang a birthday song to mi & wrote a delication letter to Yes9.33 but not read out... Jennifer sent mi a online card... Jaclyn Mei & Jessie Mei want to give mi a food treat, both on diff day coz they dun noe each other... Well all this ain't important, wat i took it to heart most is tat u guys remembered... This is already the PRICELESS presents i could ever recieved... (.^_^.)

Happy Birthday to myself...

Kajuaz is so dead... Living like a dead... Nobody understands mi... A fucked up week i had... Screwed in every inch of mi... No trust... Not even a molecule of trust... I've closed all the windows, locked myself up... The key is outside, but i guess no one will be able to find it... Disappointed in the world... The ugly world...

Woooo.... My army buddy Chris ordered 108 pcs of red rose from mi... And to my surprise he said its for proposal... Damn i cant believe it at fast... Too sudden... I sincerely wish him all the bast man...

Toking bout this... i dunno when will be the time i'm doing this shit... Btw rite now i do not wish to get attached for its gonna be my burden... Not saying tat gers are burden... but for my current situation now, am not suitable to have a partner for my job isnt stable yet and my current stress from work is already at a high level, i do not wish to go into my breaking point if my anata tiff wif mi... Am happy being single now, juz wish to get on track for my job, earn as much $$$ as i can, spend it on some little things tat i like and wish to fulfill...

Too much for uploading have been miss coz this stupid google kept giving mi problem in loggin on blogspot... shit...

Anyway... Am working in HP now... repairing their notebook... damn i'm now so good in screwing... haha...

Google is lousy!!!

Long Vacation

Kajuaz really took a long vacation... Missing In Action for mths... Basically i'm in Msia lah... So nothing to rant bout... Actually i have alot alot alot to blog... but due to my com spoil, many have juz left behind... Rite now i got a com back, not a brand new one... But a sponsored one, courtesy of Alan... Got an old motherboard from him... Now i'm back into online actions...

Wow... So long i did not blog le... My fucking com died on mi... tried ways and means to fix it but no avail... Damn... And been down on cash too... If i have the cash i'll fucking throw tat old com away for a new one... but seems like this is not so going to happen...

How pathetic of mi to be blogging in a lan shop now... A place u would never be able to find mi... I really hated lan shop... and those kids here... shouting while gaming... the noise level is intolerable... If not becoz i need to access mail for my flower selling thing, i'll never step in to this kind of shop... and not becoz they count by per hour and i've already paid for my 1 hr of usuage, i jolly well fuck off from here once i'm done wif my mails...

Well this yr as usual i'll go back to m'sia for CNY... shld be leaving after V day... Not becoz i gotta spend the day wif a Valentine... I gotta stay to make sure all my orders of flower have been delivered... I do not have a Valentine... and guess i wun be finding 1 soon... Happy wif this carefree life i'm leading now...