Tired

I'm tried... juz plain tried... tried mainly on my body and some on my mind... see... i'm tried till i type the word rongly... wat the hell...

Sleepless nite

Oh i did not sleep well last nite... dunno y suddenly i feel so lonely instead of horny... for the 1st time the lonely virus struck and hit mi hard... usually i can overcome it myself... but last nite the feeling was so strong... one tat i cant defence myself from it...

Forgive & Forget

I found out tat forgiving someone is such an easy task compared to forgetting... Forgiving someone needs time but forgetting wat someone did to u needs a hard knock on the head... ( to lose memory)

Understanding Kajuaz

How many understand Little Kajuaz??? Kajuaz have 3 female buddies, 1 male buddy... Pathetic ah... I dun think so... having so little is better than having alot alot of aquaintances which dun even give a damn shit bout u... When u are in trouble they juz leave u in lurch...

So out of my buddies, who can understand mi and deserve my care and concern in return??? Seriously there is only 1 female and the male... Y only 50% ??? I glad its 50% only... juz a nice no. not too little not too much... Then how bout the other 2 female ones??? Nah!!!... they dun deserve my care and concern... maybe u think i'm bit of too much to say this coz i claim tat they are my buddy... ya true they are my buddy... but they will only find mi when they are in trouble... I have reasons to say this... they dun sincerely care bout wats going on in my life, wat they really care bout is their bf... this is kind of sensitive here... how does it affect mi... It defineately affect mi coz i've been hurt by them b4 becoz of their bf... i'm like a piece of turd... Fuck... i csnt carry on writing... damn pissed off when come to think of it...

Juz a comment

I got a little comment from an uncle while working on his computer... It goes like this :

Uncle: Young man! Are u ok??

Me: Yah...

Uncle: Are u into Opera or Drama??? U painted ur nails...

Me: No... I'm not into tat...

Uncle: Do u have a girlfriend anot???

Me: No... But i'm straight...

Uncle: U cannot do this u noe... All the gers will be jealous of u becoz u got nicer nails than them...

Me: (-_-)lll

Ok I do smile back at him lah... well he put his sacarcism in a nice way lah... Listen only to the good things... haha... Anyway I've removed the polish already... Reason??? Not becoz of comments I cant take... But its becoz 7th mth is next week... I dun wanna get attention from the HUMANS & NON - HUMANS... Looking at the chinese calendar... I gotta wait till Sept 25th b4 I can repolish my nails again... dunno I still can see my nails anot... If I do means its so damn long... If I dun either means it breaks or I go back to reservice...

Black or White???

Which is nicer?? Black or White... Haha... now then i realise white is so diff to paint... i painted 4 layer of white b4 i can actually make my nails opaque white...



PS. Stupid Eve suggest tat i paint 1 black 1 white...

Oh my fucking god!!! God damn it!!!

Went to the wall to press $$$ this morning.... inserted my card, juz when i wanted to key in my PIN... WAT THE FUCK!!! Its not my name showing on the welcome screen... It shows Tan Heng Chong... I blurred for few secs... cancel the transaction to retrieve my card to check... FUCK~!!!... Its really not mine card... How the hell did this card fall into my hand... Back track my memories... my last transaction is in Xchange Room... Great!!!... Blur Waitresses...

No choice gotta call the customer service to report this stupid case... Luckily i no need to pay for the replacement card and tat person did not find out bout this also... he did not use my card... BUT unfortunately i dun have cash wif mi... shit... cant even buy cigarettes... feels so naked and hadicap without my card around... no cash and cant even get cash... PIECE OF SHIT... now gotta wait for few days to have the replacement sent to mi...

Bought this book... really attracts mi when i 1st glimpse at the cover... haven started reading it yet... but i noe i will finish this book... actually i'm also quite interested in his life... i wanna noe more bout him...

I wanna watch this movie... i love horror movie... especially when it can let mi have a chill down my spine... but till now only 'The Eye' done it to mi b4... reviews heard is not really nice... was scary in the 1st part but had a touching ending at the end... spoiler for a horror movie...

Here's the 2nd movie on my list... Dun really noe wat is it bout but its catches my attention when the trailer was broadcast at the big screen Shaw Lido... was walking pass there and i stopped to watch it... shld be interesting... bit of art, feelings... i gonna watch it no matter wat... i juz cant find kaki to watch wif mi...

WOOHOO

Look at this piece of beautiful art man... woohoo...

Do not doubt... this is little Kajuaz's hand... and the nails ain't fake... they are absoufuckinglutely nails tat grow out from my fingers... If u feel disgusted... pls leave and head to the toilet bowl, plant ur head in there and fucking puke ur intestine out... I dun give a fucking damn of wat ppl gonna say bout my nails... all i wanna say is I DARE... I even went to work like this... my colleague were all numb shut bout this... so if u dun like my nails, at least tells mi tat i got 'balls' to do it...

(.-_-.)

Dreamsss

Been having alot of dreamsss these few days... and every of it is a bad dream... not a nitemare actually coz i dun jump out of my sleep having cold sweat... juz bad dream tat disturb my sleep... i think i do tok in my dreamsss... cant remember wat i had... only remembered tat some frends were in my dreamsss... did they come to my dreamland to scare mi... haha... i dunno... juz felt wierd... could it be my mind is at somewhere else so tats y there's a space for dreamsss to come in... wierd wierd wierd...

I'm Innocent!!!

How can u treat a frend like this... ur frend is innocent... ; ever got scolded out of nothing juz becoz ur frend is not in a good mood??? or shld i say pms??? mood swing??? how can a real frend to this... Personally i dun do tat to my frends which i cherish... even if i'm in a bad mood i'll juz sit down, shut myself & show a black face... i dun get piss off wif my frend when they did nothing to mi... THEY ARE INNOCENT!!! I cant tolerate ppl who do this to mi or they do to their frends... its so incorrigible...

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Lousy shitty day... made a super big mistake today at work... shld say its a irreversible mistake... i deleted the important data of the user... luckily my colleague got magic power... help mi retrieve back the deleted data... mission impossible...

My mind was at somewhere else today or shld i say at someones' else... no mood to work at all especially after this big mistake... i pratically stopped work... juz daze around waited for time to go home... i shld stop missing someone already... it feels so terrible doing tat... makes my day so down... ya i shld... wat for i miss someone impossible... shld listen to wat Miss Eng says... "Bu Zhi De"... yap i've woken up... ain't not too late rite... and i've not played any high handed games... in fact i threw it away... ain't a game for mi to play... think i will not touch any in short time... guess i dun have wat it takes to be a bad boy afterall... non of those programmes is installed in mi... i'll juz be the Silly Little Kajuaz i used to be bah...

A boring and lonely weekend for little Kajuaz... but its a good weather tat Kajuaz like... rainy weather... Kajuaz favourite.... dark sky, big wind, heavy rain... wow... feels so nice... ya maybe becoz Kajuaz feels so lonely now... tats y he like this kind of weather... which describes his moods... maybe???

BTW Kajuaz has mutated... Is Kajuaz an X-Men??? Not Wolverine but Kajuazine haha...





Amazing isn't it... i had such long nails... ya i noe some say its disgusting... but i say its a miracle... how many can actually leave their nails so long without breaking it??? i need to work using my hands also... but of course i do take precaution as not to break my nails... And i'm gonna paint my nails... yeah... who dares to challenge mi...

Kajuaz miss her so much... any cure for missing someone???

Fucking Monday blues.... 1st i woke up late... still feeling very tired... while working my mind was floating at somewhere else... and juz as u tot its nothing, everything else juz come knocking on ur door... everything thing went wrong for mi at work today... those pc tat i work on all have problems... and its all new problems... i gotta seek from from my colleague to solve them... shit...

Today reach home late...lazing on the sofa watching tv and suddenly have this nostalgic feeling... thinking back tat now i'm in the working world le... no longer waking up in the morning going to sch for studies anymore... last time was worries for studies... but now is worry for future... i hate growing up... who can lend mi the time machine???

Look at Little Kajuaz at then................







and Little Kajuaz face was on the Esplanade pillar once...




and now this the the Little Kajuaz in reality





Time really flies.... cant imagine i'll get married, be a father, have my own hse, own car etc etc... so horrigible come to think of it...

Work is good... and little Kajuaz is good too... got along very well wif colleagues... now we are like frends working together... lots of laffter, shit stirring and tokking cock... going to work feels so relaxed... no stress, no pressure... glad i found this job... only bad thing is the money thingy.... haha.... juz hope to have more....

Sleep is good... Kajuaz is back to normal human sleeping time le... insonmia no more... having good nite sleep every nite... and wake up feeling fresh...


juz like this

I got a wishlist in my mind which i wanna fulfil it in few months time when i get my salary...

1. A diamond ring for myself
2. Command & Conquer Generals
3. Wolrld of Warcraft
4. LCD monitor
5. New motherboard ( com upgrade)
6. A small dvd player which support Divx
7. A new Nokia
8. Another half yr supply of contact lense

Lets juz see how many can i fulfil wif my meagre pay...

Lazy kajuaz stayed at home for the weekends... well nothing to do boring... luckily i got 4 cute ladies to acc mi... juz got the full series of Sex And The City... been following up wif them nowadays...

The week been quite busy... although work is easy and i alwiz finish work b4 4pm... but i still feel very tired everyday... Been a week since i worked... everything have been fine... learned everything in juz a short 3 days... now i can be on my own le... but guess i'll be looking for a nite job or i'll change for a better pay job...

Birthday is over... well... never quite celebrated it... only went for a good meal wif a few good frends... got a nice Domanchi shirt from Sharon & Summer, a box of great tasty chocolates from my cute little puppy Jaclyn, a pouch fron Serene... its nice of them to get mi a present... Thank U guys... really appreciated it...

Been bitching in a singapore forum call flowerpod nowadays... very infomative... all the basic A, B ,C of ppl and life... juz for the knowledge of myself only lah.... posted a thread on cold songs... not bad... got quite a few response... quite alot of recommendations on cold songs... really nice to listen to cold songs...

Wat a day i had... recieved an sms from Jingyong at noon asking wanna watch MI3... well i didnt plan to catch this movie... but ya its a sunday and i've been stuck at home for so many days le, so might as well go out for some fresh air ba... and bloody hell JY & Million choose Jurong Pt... WTF man... so far for mi... but well i still went in the end... lucky JY drives so at least i dun have to stand on the bloody train and squeeze wif ppl...Caught the 6.20pm show...

Here's wat i feel bout the show... 2 thumbs up man... though i'm not a MI fan nor crazy bout Mr Bruise... and i did not watch the previous 2 MI... so thumbs up is for the actions and technology... was real impressed by it...

Went off to visit Congo's son... coz the 2 bastards never went for his son 1st mths celebration... sat down tok cock, catch up, bitching around at a prata shop nearby...

Well really enjoy today's bitching session... been some time since we sat down and tok bout each other lan jiao wei... scolding each other all the vulgarities... haha... those were the days...

Happy Bitching!!!

Apparently silly Kajuaz have been sick for 2 days le... Having bad fever & throat inflamation... I cant even tok now... throat feels so painful even when swallowing saliva... and ya i did lost my voice coz of the thick phlgem stuck in my throat cant cough out... haizzz... real bad fever coming on and off for many times... feel so miserable now... and i didnt eat much these 2 days... only ate porridge.... kinda hungry now but no appetite... when will this fucking idiotic virus dies off... its killing mi le... i wanna eat good food on my bday one...

Ppl who strained their eyes reading this; I DID IT ON PURPOSE!!!

Oh yah... not forgeting to add more to my wishlist...

1. A webcam
2. Original Windows XP
3. Fragrant items tat can scent up my room

Where's my smile???

Been no good since i last update... Bad as in real bad, damn bad, never tat bad b4... I've been jobless for almost 3 mths le... No job, no money, no happiness, no life... Ain't tat juz bad enuff to kill urself... Now worse still tat my Bday is nearing... cant celebrate... anyway its nothing to celebrate actually... been celebrating for the past 5 yrs le... a bit bored bout it now... maybe shld do something new... how bout get 10 gers to rape mi??? maybe not enuff... how bout 20... haha... i'm so full of shit... crazy...

How bout mi telling u my crazy wishlist for this yr...

1. 20 gers to rape mi... haha
2. A good meal tat will make mi gain 10kg...
3. A job tat can give mi high salary... U hire mi???
4. A watch tat can last 10yrs
5. Command & Conquer Generals (original), Zero Hours expansion
6. A new Nokia
7. A decent pair of specs

Actually also not much lah... Juz some stupid ideas in my silly brain now...

Here's the Silly Kajuaz... after so long of m.i.a he's finally back here to blog...

A short update of him for those who are concern for him... Silly Kajuaz is now jobless... quitted his job b4 CNY juz becoz he dun like the place... haha... so now he is tending his very own mushroom farm... its getting bigger as days goes... haha... Full Of Shit rite... nvm bout this lame guy lah... juz pray hard for him to get a job soon... hopefully to his likings...
Other than this he is still the same old Kajuaz u noe... nothing has change...

FIRE!!! Dun ever play wif fire... its seems so nice to play wif... but when it gets out of control, its hell break loose...

So scared... Human are so scary... its so dofficult to survive in the outside world now... too much things i haven seen and been thru... i'm juz a bloody green horn... and only all the hypocrite ppl survive... they killed all the nice ppl out there... i'm being killed too... i had alot to learn... learn to be more 'jian' in order to survive...